100 Have You Evers... (Thanks Lani!!)

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes? erm, yes. But lets not dwell on the past.

2. Slept in a different bed? Yup. Nothing beats your own bed though really...

3. Made out in a movie theatre? not "made out" as such, but it was a date...

4. Made out with 2 different people in one night? Nope. Too much self respect.

5. Thought your cousin was hot? Eeeeew!! Have you seen my cousins!! lol. That would just be wrong!!

6. Been in love? Part of me says yes, but looking back, I don't think so. And I'm trying very hard to avoid it at the moment. The complication is hideous enough as it is...

7. Slept? Well, yes! Not much recently for various reasons, but yeah.

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? No, not as such. There've been showers like out on the beaches in America and swimming pools on holiday, but not a bathroom shower, no.

9. Gone over the speed limit? I don't drive :p

10. Painted your room? What are Daddies for?? Duh!!

12. Danced in front of your mirror? *goes very red* *small voice* all the time. Except at uni, where I don't actually have a mirror...

13. Gotten a hickey? no, because I don't date vampires.

14. Been dumped? Well, I suppose it would be called "being dumped", but last I heard from him, he'd asked my best mate out. While we were still together. He never called to say that it was over...so technically...

15. Stolen money from a friend? Never

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met? It was that or walk back to Kingswood...

17. Been in a fist fight? Fists no. Slaps, yes.

18. Snuck out of your house? You've clearly never visited my house (a.k.a. Fort Knox) plus the stairs all creak, there's no such thing as avoiding the creaky floorboards...

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? past tense?? Ha, if only.

20. Been arrested? I thought we agreed this was never gonna get talked about again?? lol. Course not!!

21. Made out with a stranger? again, two words: Self. Respect.

22. Left your house with out telling your parents? I actually never do!! How sad is that!!

23. Had a crush on your neighbor? have you *seen* my neighbours?? plus, they're all little kids, so that would just be wrong.

24. Ditched school to do something more fun? no, I was a keen bean.

25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex ? yes, but only same, not opposite.

26. Seen someone die? nope

27. Been on a plane? Unfortunately yes. When they discover a way of getting to the US without flying, I'm *so* there...

28. Kissed in a picture? I don't do PDA's

29. Slept in until 3? nah. Being in bed really isn't that much fun...I'd rather be up and doing something.

30. Love someone or miss someone right now? Both. Let's not dwell on that one either.

31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yup. It's *so* relaxing, an with the right person...

32. Made a snow angel? snow?? what's snow Mummy??

33. Played dress up? I *am* a Princess, I don't need to dress up like one!!! I was never really into that as a kid, other than my Tutu...

34. Cheated while playing a game? Have you ever tried to play Cluedo with me?? Tip: don't if you like to win...I know every cheat in the book. And I've tried them all too. Ask my mum if you don't believe me.

35. Been lonely? When you need someone so badly it hurts...yes. I have.

37. Been to a club? Oh come on, you've only just got me going to the union!!

38. Felt an earthquake? Thankfully no!

39. Touched a snake? I have actually. At Marwell Zoo. It was horrible.

40. Ran a red light? I still don't drive...

41. Been suspended from school? Nope, I was a good girl me...just ask Mrs Clarke if you don't believe me...

42. Had detention? Only lunchtimes. And that was only coz the whole class got kept in.

43. Been in a car wreck? Not a wreck, although a kid once cycled into the car on the passenger side and smashed the windscreen and made a huge dent in the side of the car...

44. Hated the way you look? If I'm honest, yes. Quite a lot. And even tho I got told off for it the other night, its still gonna happen.

45. Witnessed a crime? nope. not to my knowledge anyway.

46. Been lost? My map reading skill is of, well, variable standard...

47. Been to the opposite side of the country? well, from here, that would be Scotland...so no. And the furthest East I've been is Ashford and West is probably Bristol...

48. Felt like dying from embarrassment? SO many times...I need to choose my friends more carefully I think...

49. Cried yourself to sleep? It happens.

50. Sang karaoke? Oh yes. Many times.

51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? Where to start?? Well, positively...got in here, passed my Physics with an A, got in a plane again after 9/11, left home... more negatively, fell for the wrong person. Again. stayed up late to finish work that is due in the next day.

52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Eww!! No!!

53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes

54. Kissed in the rain? *ahem* yes.

55. Sung in the shower? I'm more of a bath girl if I'm honest...

56. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes, so lets move swiftly on so as to avoid any awkward questions.

57. Played getting married? When I was *very* little...

58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? Can't say I ever have actually...

59. Ever gone to school partially nude? nope

60. Been a hooker? Do those two words need repeating again??

61. Sat on a roof top? Noooooo, but I would really love to sometime...

62. Didn't take a shower for a week? Happens often actually, as I said, I'm more of a bath girl...

63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? I've given myself a life ban on scary movies, coz I get scared and need a cuddle...

64. Played chicken? nope, I value my organs being *inside* my body, not squashed on the road by a car

65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No, so lets keep it that way...

66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes, but he was drunk, so I didn't pay too much attention to it...

67. Broken a bone? No, but there's still time...

68. Been easily amused? I have a *very* low humour threshold...

69. Laugh so hard you cry? all the time!!

70. Cheated on a test? Nothing that really mattered...

71. Forgotten someone's name? Since I have the memory of a golfish, it happens all the time!!

72. Blacked out from drinking? never

73. Played a prank on someone? hehe, yeah. good times!!

74. Gone to a late night movie? nope.

76. Failed a class? I've actually *never* failed any kind of exam. Come very close with Physics, but never actually failed...

77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? man, I choke on stuff I *am* supposed to eat!

78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Erm, not straight off, but rehearsals for West Side Story were pretty intense...

79. Had feelings for two people at the same time? nope. I'm a one man woman. Maybe that's my problem...

80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no, but I did give it a thought.

81. Thrown strange objects? When I'm angry, I throw whatever is to hand

82. Felt like someone else? never...maybe that's my problem too...

83. Thought about running away? yeah, never actually done it tho...

84. Ran away? Oops. See above.

85. Had detention and not attend it? Never had detention :P

86. Made parents cry? My dad is getting dead emotional in his old age...

87. Cried over someone? what, like, today?? or ever?? lol. Not today, before anyone starts to worry, but yeah, often.

88. Owned more than 5 sharpies? *translation error*

89. Dated someone more than once? *ahem* moving swiftly on...

90. Have a dog? nope

91. Own an instrument? One or six

92. Been in a band? Let's get one thing straight, I'm not *with* the band...I *am* the band...

93. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no

94. Wish you could go back in time and change something? regret is a very bad thing. Yes, of course I do, I'm human. But we live and learn.

95. Shot a gun? haha, just stop and think on that one...me?? with a gun?? HAHAHA!!

96. Been on Myspace for more than 5 hours? I don't have a Myspace, but Facebook...

97. Been through puberty? well, I'd like to think so...being 19 an all

98. Have a major crush on someone right now? is nothing secret round here?? oh yeah, no, its not!!

99. Have a religion? lets just say, my favourite quote of the last few weeks, "I don't believe in religion, I believe in God" (thanks Tim, you're a legend)

100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral? Yes, but I was ill at the time...

Specialness

This might seem like a bit of an echo of Lani's blog (WOW!! Paula has just MSNd me to say I need to blog again...just as I'm writing this! madness) Anywho, the point of this blog: what I should have done long ago and what I should say to people a lot more than I do...

In no particular order really, just as my thoughts take me...

Lani - my uni mum. She really really is. This week I've had a mini regression with my hideous complication, and she's been there 100% and didn't even tell me off for missing my curfew (again!) when I was trying to sort things out. She's just Lani, and she's amazing in every way...she even organised a mammoth operation to make me a birthday cake at Cell last week without my knowledge in any way...she is amazing and I love her to bits.

Sarah N - my other uni mum. She keeps telling me I can go to her any hour of the day or night with my problems, and when other people tell her that I've been upset, she gets upset that I haven't gone to her. THAT is friendship. When someone so chronically busy as she is can still find time to get upset that I haven't gone to her with a problem...words are actually failing me at this point, but she knows (I hope) that its just me giving her a little break from my woes by taking them to someone else...it doesn't mean I love her any less.

Nao - lots and lots of special housemate love to my Nao...a rubbish liar but one of the best friends a girl could have. Always there without fail, and ALWAYS patient with me, even when I'm making a mess of things. Or reading invisible *ahem* subtexts into conversations that aren't really there. Good job she's on my committee really, I need someone to keep me organised!!

Laura P - I've been a rubbish friend to you recently...and yet you're still there for me when I get upset very late at night and need a cuddle. For keeping me sane in Novel and Poetry lectures...I love you so much, and I *will* be better next term. I'm not making excuses, coz I've *never* been the kind of girl to let a guy come between me and my girls, so I'm not gonna let ANYTHING come between us, you're too special.

Jo B - my uni big sister. And she really is. If I could chose any sister in the world, it would be Joey. She's such an amazing person, we struggle together, laugh and cry together and generally spend far too much time procrastinating together when we should be working.

Paula - who has gone remarkbly quiet on MSN just now...but she still gets a mention. I've got to admit, Paula always intimidated me slightly when I first met her. Now I know she's just mad. Lovely. But mad. If there's one person guaranteed to make me smile when I'm down, its Paula, and that is such an amazing quality to have in a friend.

Ben, Chris Tis and Tom Page - not quite sure how, but you three have the amazing ability to always, without fail, make me laugh, however stressed or upset or angry I am, you guys just crack me up (that is a *really* good thing btw!!) It's gonna majorly suck next year when Chris and Ben have left...but until then, keep it up guys!! It's good for my mental sanity if nothing else!! (Special note for Chris Tis - your MSN names are actually starting my day with a smile every morning!! You're a legend too)

Tim Rose - I doubt he'll ever read it, but I thought I'd give him a mention anyway. He's been amazing this term, despite always assuming that I'm in some sort of mess through my own actions...when I turn up in his office going, "Tim, Help" I'm met with "Why? What have you done now?" But all jokes aside, his help in the last few days with my hideous complication has been brilliant and I wanted everyone to know how thankful to him I am for that.

Chris, Lani, Nao, Rhian, Hannah, Alice - my cell. Some of you have already had individual mentions (oooh, aren't you special!!!) (Well, yeah, that is the point of this blog entry) but as a group I wanted to make a special point - I have never *ever* felt as loved by one group of friends as I did last Thursday...you guys are so special to me, and I'm gonna miss yous all *so* much next year when we aren't in the same cell anymore!!!

I think that's about the lot!! Sorry to get so emotional, but as I was just saying to Paula, I was overtaken by a mood and felt that I should maybe say some stuff that I haven't said to you guys in a while. I don't say it often, but I really do value you all *so* much, and I know how lucky I am to have you all around me

Big Hugs all round...feel free to come and see me for a proper one anytime yous all like

love always

me

xx

A good old boost for the self-esteem...

Enjoy playing with these guys...

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Laura-Jane

http://www.laura.youaremighty.com

Ho hum...

Well well well. Where to begin?? The last few weeks have been really rather uneventful (apart from last night, more of which later). TONNES of work, and I mean literally TONNES. Definately a physical as well as metaphorical weight on my shoulders at the moment. But still. We don't complain. much. lol. I'm actually considering looking in my diary to see if anything has happened since my last blog *searches for said dairy* but the saddest thing is, the most exciting thing I've done in the two weeks or so since my last blog...is have coffee with Lani and Nao. Don't get me wrong girlies, it was a very fun time, but it shows how much of a life outside the uni bubble I don't have at the moment!! I need to get out more.

Actually, having said all that, some very good things have happened to those around me...Mark was inducted into his new church, which was all very Anglican and faffy, but still quite interesessting, especially as we had banners :) Go Paula and Jo!!! And of course, the Exec Elections where John got voted in as Welfare Officer. That was a *very* nervous few hours waiting for those results, followed by a few very fun hours of celebrations.

Elections. Funny we should come to talk about them...which leads me nicely (humbly and modestly) onto last night...CT elections. I thought it would be a good idea to stand for President. So I did. And didn't realise until I walked back into the room and the union bloke was opening his mouth to tell me I'd won that "I WAS GOING TO BE IN CHARGE OF A SOCIETY". But I won. So now I am!! And it's SO exciting!! Scary, but exciting!! Had my first meeting as "President" with Tim today, and I think it's going to be an AMAZING year...I've got a brilliant committee to work with, so I'm looking forward to getting to know those people I don't know so well better and getting on even better with the ones I do know. We then followed the elections with Cell, and it was mos def one of the best yet. Love it.

So yeah, its all good really!!

Until later fellow bloggers...

xx

Just for Paula

Paula wanted to me to blog again. So here it is - the past couple of weeks in Lulu Land:

Well, technically *still* recovering from the Weekend Away...still got backache (which has today also developed into *chronic* neck ache :( , still really quite tired...never quite got the hang of early nights...so still haven't really caught up on the 20 or so hours sleep I missed over said weekend. But still, the miracles of modern make-up cover the bags under my eyes, so all is not lost!! And anyway, Lani has made me promise to be in bed before midnight every night during lent...so I've gotta enjoy my last few late nights before that begins!!!

Hum...other than that, not much has really happened. Been working *very* hard...saw my tutor and came up with a few strategies to help...like stop trying to be a perfectionist and act like you're a first year etc etc. Also been getting lots of very lovely support from everyone else, which was nice. The hideous complication has all but gone...our friendship is still there, my heart is almost intact again and things are definately on the up :)

My St John's Cru went Ice Skating on Tuesday...VERY funny...Johnny had his camera, and got a video or two (or ten) of us all at various stages between flat on the ice (Paula) and immense skating action (Tom P and Sacha and Rach). I think I fell somewhere in between (not literally, altho that did happen once), but in my defence, the time I almost fell over wasn't my fault - Paula skated into Ben, and he decided that my arm was the preferable thing to hold on to to stop himself falling over. The time I did fall over also wasn't my fault...honest!!!! lol.

The only thing of excitement that has happened since then....I'VE GOT A HOUSE!!!!!!!!!! I'm now no longer homeless for next year, and its not in the ghetto!!! Woohoo!!

And that's about your lot

Until next time fellow bloggers...

x

Awwwwwwwww, I'm so rubbish!!

I do believe I managed to write a whole blog entry without mentioning my most beautiful favouritest Sarah N once!! I'm so rubbish!! The Weekend Away that she organised, and I didn't even give her a mention!!

What I should have said is that she is one of the most amazing people I've ever met, and I know I'm so blessed to have her as a friend. She gave up so much of her time over the weekend to look after me and spend time with me, talking and praying and gernerally making sure I was ok.

I love her to bits!!!!!

xx

THE most epic Weekend Away ever (Will I say that every time??)

Hum. Well, where to begin?? If I'm being honest, the excitement really began at Regenerate on Thursday night...well, that was where I began bouncing with excitement about it anyway!! Also was doing quite a lot of excited bouncing in the College Shop on Friday afternoon. I think I scared Luke...he looked slightly petrified at the prospect of spending the weekend with me!!! And then when I got back to Kingswood there was obviously the saga of packing...more of which later I believe.

Anywho. To move it along...Founders Wes' Thide (say it out loud...pref with the hand thing...), 6.45. And perhaps the funniest moment of the whole weekend (up to that point at least): Ben's face when he thought that the pile of bags belonging to about four people was all mine. Which it wasn't. Because I'd packed light :-) Really, if you don't believe that was light, ask my Dad how much stuff I took to America...ANYWAY, I didn't have *that* much...Susie had a suitcase too (Yes I know *all* her stuff was in it, but that is *such* a minor point. And Paula had two pillows, but no-one mocked her did they?? BUt it still became the joke of the weekend. Huh. After (much) complaining, all the stuff (and five people) fitted in Ben's car, even if it was a lil bit snug in the back. (Ooooooooooooh, at some point in there I became aquainted with Liz....almost missed that bit out!! ERROR!!) (Sorry Lani). Oh, an we had a bit of a pillow fight too (obviosuly before we got in the car...Ben's car might be the car of fun, but there isn't quite enough space for it to be *that* fun)

So, M25. Fun as ever. Almost blinded Ben by taking a photo when he was looking in the rear view mirror.

Debated taking a photo of Tom Page as we drove past, but decided that would be slightly dangerous and rather irresponsible, so we played some funky music instead...cheesy pop is my speciality :P Godalming proved really rather an exciting place..so exciting we drove around it three times (well, it sounds better than "we got a bit lost when we were trying to find the church" doesn't it?? no?? sarcastic?? me??) but we got there eventually. And it was MAHUSIVE. Literally, a person could get lost in that place. We were *so* spoilt...Table Tennis, Table Football, Air Hockey (Yes, AIR HOCKEY!! and not a bowling alley in sight) and a Pool Table. Turned out that the girls had an amazing room to sleep in...TWO sofas, and squillions of sofas...and the poor boys had, well, the floor?? there was lots of floor to choose from...yet they still moaned!! Can't completely remember what we did on Friday evening...we had Spag Bol for dinner, and played lots of games, including some sort of welcome game where we learnt that Tom "Quentin" Page's mum isn't allergic to potatoes and that there were a lot of sad musos on that weekend. Had some girly bonding over chocolate in the bedroom...lots of special housemate love to my girlies...

I think we went to bed at about 12.30 / 1ish...and went to sleep about 2.30ish. Lani sang (croaked) some German lullabys, but they didn't really work...but we did get a number of classic quotes in that time... "I need to go to sleep or I'll fail my degree" (Paula), "Chris has five letters" (long story, but thanks for that one Liz) and just general girly chit chat about boys and stuff...and I think we should stop there for Friday night (well, technically Saturday morning) :-)

So, later on Saturday morning...I managed to completely spoil Lani's fun by being awake and therefore not needing a nice early morning rendition of "Rise and Shine and give God the glory glory". Breakfast was pretty uneventful really...dunno why I a) only have breakfast on the Weekend Away or b) why I only ever have chocolate spread on toast on said Weekend... Hum *ponders* Anyway...had the first meeting...on a more serious note here, Vicky was AMAZING...everyone got so much out of the weekend, I know I certainly did.

Lunch followed...and who could've guessed that cookies go so well with a ham salad sandwich...well, Em assured us they did...no one else really wanted to try it!! Crisps in a sandwich, yes. Biscuits, no. There is a time and place for biscuits, and in a sandwich is not it. Lots of various sports (of the table based variety) were going on all day...turns out I'm pants at Air Hockey, pretty pants at Table Football and royally pants at Table Tennis...I maintain its because I'm too nice to want to beat everyone else...but I think the truth is I'm pants!!!! Second meeting...had a ministry time and laid hands on and prayed over Lani (which worked!! YIPPEE!!) then had some free time to explore historic Godalming. Which was EPIC. Actually, it was ever so slightly wierd, just like it was driving down roads that were so familiar to me...we were only 20 mins from my house, yet I was surrounded by uni people...VERY surreal, but soooooo tempting to go home for a hot bath!!!

Someone had the inspired idea of putting on some music when we were cooking dinner, and the memory of Tom CH 'shaking it' like a polaroid picture will (unfortunately) remain ingrained on my mind for many days to come. Was really good fun hanging out in the kitchen though, and I like to think we cooked a good meal!! (Actually, on a short diversion, ALL the food was good for the whole weekend...so simple, but really proper food!! I ate 3 proper meals each day!! Pudding and all!!). Then there was the big ol Saturday night meeting, which had such a good atmosphere. Vicky was a really inspiring talker, and it was really cool to do something so different (Don't worry James...Alan...we were all friends there...nasty smelly boys!!). Jokes aside, the fellowship *was* really good, simply because we were all such good friends.

No Weekend Away would be complete without the Saturday night games... *nods proudly* I KNEW learning the lyrics for "U Can't Touch This" would come in useful one day!! It was *such* a laugh...typical Page-esque scoring...still can't believe Ben took a point off us for "cheating" when he told us exactly what we'd worked out seconds after docking us our point!! Rudeness I call it!!! Still, Team Jamesey came second :-) so all was not lost. One of *the* most epic moments of the weekend though had to be the wheelchairs...

Me an Jo B stayed up for a bit to play table tennis with Chris and Ben...I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO rubbish...sorry Chris!! And he was so nice about me being so rubbish!! What a gent.

Bedtime was a *lot* quieter that night...people went a lot earlier, but there still managed to be quite a lot of hilarity anyway...Paula fell over at least four times before she got settled...Liz an Em texting...Lani threatening to confisscate their phones (which she did in her sleep apparently!! EPIC!!) and the snoring!!! Turns out that Paula actually tried to record it, but her's and Liz's descriptions in the morning meant that we didn't really need a recording...lol.

Waking up on Sunday morning was, admittedly quite a chore, but we all finally emerged. Had a *slight* problem getting my sleeping bag away which I struggled with for almost 10 mins and which took Ben at the most 2 mins to sort out :-( I'm such a girl sometimes!!! We went to the service, which was funny...some *classic* old skool hymns, and Lani's newest favourite song in the world...then a quick lunch and pack and we were gone.

I know I've missed so many classic moments out of that...all the time round the piano with Lani and Liz, all the classic quotes that were so funny at the time but that I can't recall now, Dodgeball with an inflatable globe, Hacky-Sacky...just know it was the BEST time I've had in a very long time!!

Thanks guys!!

xx

How to tell when I've got an essay due...the blogthings appear...

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Counting my blessings...

Wow, this is really rather nice. When I saw it, I felt so loved!! And slightly embarrassed - I'm nothing special, I'm just me!!

http://glitzy-dreams.blogspot.com/2005/12/ode-to-robins.html

Reading that just makes me realise how lucky I am to have such amazing people around me!! Actually slightly at a loss for words to describe what I'm trying to say, you guys *know* how much I love you all...you're all so different it would take me the rest of the day to say it all anyway, but you know who you are and why you're so special to me!!

xx

Found this...amazing procrastination!!

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Hum...

You wouldn't believe how hard it really is to start a blog entry. No really, I started this three time before actually managing to type more than a sentance!! Madness.

Anywho...was just perusing some of my back catalog (as it were) and was surprised to see how like me my blogging was...it's really quite scary seeing yourself in words on a computer screen!! And speaking of scary things I've written...I think the reality of uni is finally hitting home...the work is out of control. I've got a 1500-2000 word essay due EVERY SINGLE WEEK this term...I'm already going slightly mad!! I got so stressed about it last week that it took the combined efforts of Lani, Sarah N, Jane and John to sort me out and get me back on track...you guys know how much I love you...but thanks anyway, you rock my (tiny little) world.

Procrastination still proves perhaps the biggest challenge I've faced at uni so far...so easy to succomb, so hard to avoid. Actually, that could be some sort of scientific thesis...how to avoid avoiding something...hmm, special. And not in a good way. I think it's catching though...and I think that by the end of three years I'll be rivalling Lani for Procrastination Queen aswell as Heffer in Chief (I'm only a Heffer in training atm...) Having a tuck box and a sweetie jar can be something of a curse as well as a blessing in those moments of trial.

Trying not to get too deep and philosophical, as I really don't have time to stop and think that much!! Trying to write (i.e. avoid) this weeks essay (Shakespeare) then as soon as that is handed in, I've got to do a Critical Practice one for Tuesday, then write a Poetry essay during next week so I can go on the weekend away without feeling guilty about having to do it when we get back. Looking forward to the Weekend Away soooooooooooooooooo much...tis gonna be WICKED (Sorry, I sounded about 8 years old when I said that!!) *ahem* moving swiftly along...

What's left to update the world on?? My hideous complication is still, well, complicated, but getting to the stage where I can walk away and not be *too* upset...still trying to work out time management so I can see all my St Johns Cru and Kingswood Cru without neglecting either...still trying to stop stressing out so easily/so much...still trying to have as much fun as I can with all the amazing people around me...

xx

Long Time No See!!

No guys, this isn't a hugely deep emotional post about how much I love you all and how much I've missed you all over Christmas... It's just to say MY BLOGTHINGS ARE BACK!!!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Me & my hideous complications... *ahem* moving swiftly on...

You Are a Boston Creme Donut

You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you. But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft. You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily. You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out.

What Donut Are You?

See, now that is just spooky!! Someone told me the other day that I'm quite unapproachable sometimes, but that they were glad they'd made the effort to get to know me...I guess I do have a tendancy to send out "Don't Touch Me" vibes, but what I'm really saying is I'm really fragile & could really do with a cuddle!! But pouting about the doughnut being sold out?? Never was a truer word spoken!!

There seems to be a theme developing here...Can you tell what it is yet??

You Are Fossil Fuel Ice Cream

What does liking "fudge dinosaurs" say about someone?

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

Aaaaaaaaaaaaah...Ben & Jerry's...and on that note *wanders off to find food*

Much Love

L

x

Classic Emails I wanted to share with the world...

The first set of randomness is from Becca:

YOU KNOW YOU'VE BEEN IN UNIVERSITY TOO LONG WHEN...
You actually like doing laundry at home where the washing machines work.
Two miles is not too far to walk for a party.
You'd rather clean than study especially if an essay is due.
"How did it get so late!" comes out of your mouth at least once a night.
Parents' cooking becomes something you desire, not avoid.
You schedule your classes around sleep habits and soap operas, especially Neighbours and Hollyoaks.
You know the pizza boy by name and don't even need to read the menu.
You go to sleep when it's light and get up when it's dark.
You live for getting mail.
Looking out the window is a form of entertainment.
Prank phone calls become funny again.
You start thinking and sounding like your friends and your accent becomes a hybrid of West Country, Surrey and general Northern.
Highlighters are the coolest things on earth.
Rearranging your room is your favourite pastime.
Rubbish cheap £1 shops are so cool.
The weekend lasts from Thursday to Monday.

BEFORE I CAME TO UNIVERSITY, I WISH I HAD KNOWN...
That it didn't matter how late my first lecture was, I'd still sleep through it.
That I could change so much and barely realize it.
That you can love a lot of people in a lot of different ways.
No matter how 'cool' you were in school, no one here cares.
That if you wear polyester everyone will ask why you are so dressed up.
That every clock on campus shows a different time.
That if you got good A-levels, so what? It doesn't matter here.
That I would go to a party the night before an exam or essay due-date.
That you can know everything and fail a test.
That you can know nothing and ace a test.
That I could get used to almost anything found out about my friends.
That most of my education would be obtained outside of lectures.
That friendship is more than getting drunk together but that's still funny.
That Sunday is a figment of the world's imagination.
That Psychology is really Biology, that Biology is really Chemistry, that Chemistry is really Physics and that Physics is really Maths.
That my parents would become so much smarter in the last few years.

TOP 10 REASONS THAT UNIVERSITY IS LIKE PRIMARY SCHOOL.....
1. You cry for your mother.
2. You cross the street without looking for cars.
3. Snack time is a necessity.
4. You bundle up for the outdoors without caring what you look like (because everyone else looks as stupid as you do).
5. You stay at home and play games with your friends.
6. You wear your backpack on both shoulders.
7. You wear big mittens.
8. Playing in the snow is a legitimate activity.
9. You take naps.
10. You look forward to cheese toasties.

And the other classic is from my Joey:

Children of the Nineties How you know you experienced the 90's:
1) 10p Mr Frosty Ice Pops on long summer days!
2) Gordon the Gofer!
3) You could do or tried to do the Prodigy step. 'You're no good for me....'
4) You owned or longed for an Adidas three stripe tracksuit
5) You owned a compilation tape with TOP TUNES such as "Mr Vain", "What is love" and "Rhythm is a dancer" and 'How Bizarre, How Bizarre"
6) Girls thought Blue Mascara was cool!
7) Girls actually fancied Garry Barlow more than Robbie Williams
8) The Racoons!
9) You owned a pair of Nike Air Max, and wore them to death
10) Mr Motivator (Whatever happened to him?)
11) Running on the spot dancing!
12) You wore leggings/cycling shorts with long t-shirts
13) You owned a Benetton, NafNaf, sweater shop jumper or waistcoat
14) Girls owned scrunchies in an array of colours and tacky headbands with their names written on in thick glitter
16) You bought Smash Hits for the song lyrics and the immense amount of stickers that you would stick everywhere!
17) You had a pen pal
18) You could only watch the Simpson's on Sky
19) On a Saturday afternoon you watched Catchphrase, Gladiators, Generation Game, Noel's House Party and then Casualty
20) You taped the Pepsi Chat show on radio one and tired in vain to pause the tape before the annoying guy talked and ruined the whole thing.
21) Cans of Coke were 25p
22) 10p Space Raiders Crisps
23) A grey Fruit of the Loom jumper was a must have
24) Sharkie & George were the crime busters of the sea
25) Puffa jackets
26) You used the line "it's a free country" every day
27) The Sky Sports Blimp!
28) Impulse body spray for girls
29) Hooch Alcoholic Lemonade (where's it gone?!)
30) 'Don't forget your toothbrush', 'TFI' and Big Breakfast with Chris Evans
31) You had at least one troll
32) You know the dance to Macarena and Saturday Night. You also tried to scat like Scatman John! Bi bat ba ba da bo...
33) You watched Baywatch and longed for the day that Eddie & Sharni got together!
34) You watched Byker Grove ha ha ha ha ha ha hah (the theme song ending), and saw PJ get shot in the eye with a paintball!
35) PJ and Duncan not Ant and Dec! Dodgy Pop Not Dodgy Presenting!
36) Shell suits & bumbags!
37) You longed to live in Beverley Hills 90210
38) Home and Away was a prime time ITV programme watched by millions
39) You owned a Spice Girls album
40) Fruit salads and black jacks!
41) Strike it lucky on a Sunday night with Michael Barrymore when he was straight & married 42) Chain letters
43) You had fake ID
44) You remember Todd Landers in Neighbours
45) You religiously watched Saved by the Bell on a Saturday morning!
46) You more than likely lost/nearly lost a wobbly tooth on a wham bar!!
47) CK one
48) Going Live, then Live and Kicking was the place to be on a Saturday Morning - you know you remember the number 01818118181
49) You knew every word to the theme tune from Fresh Prince of Bell Air
50) You collected Premier League Stickers and did swoops at playtime

And there we have it...from childhood to student!!!

Enjoy
x

Thought this was the sweetest thing ever...

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed ever let you down probably will..
You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time...
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken...
You'll fight with your best friend..You'll blame a new love for things an old one did..You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love...
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back...
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends...
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you..
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "..that's her.."

Me got tagged...

Okies, here goes...

5 years ago... Jan 2001...actually can't remember. Guess that would have been the third year...so probably just gone back to school after the hols...not doing much would be my guess. Ooooh, but the third year was the year of Ben Long *ahem*. What a well kept secret that was. lol. But to move swiftly on...

1 year ago... Jan 2005... AS retakes and A2 January modules. Was absolutely petrified before my AS physics retake...Mr Hoe is a legend - got me an A in the end. A2 Chemy paper...less said about that the better I think. Apart from exams??? What do you mean apart from exams?? I didn't have a life during my A-levels!!

5 songs I know all the words to... erm, the soundtrack of Les Mis (I know that is more like 30 songs, but for this exercise it counts as one ok), Bette Midler's The Rose, Cole Porter's Begin the Beguine, Angel from the City of Angels soundtrack and..................aargh...I know so many songs lyrics - I was in a choir for 7 years!! erm, last one...probs Splendour Of The King.

5 snacks I enjoy... Salt & Vinegar Hula Hoops...Cadbury's Caramel...Cheddars (both normal & mini)...Jaffa Cakes...oooh, and those bags you can get of peanuts, raisins & chocolate chips. Nice.

5 things I'd do with a million pounds... got to New York with Skatho, Hannah & John tomorrow ( I couldn't afford to go when they asked me...Enjoy yourselves guys!!), erm, selflessly pay off the mortgage so my Dad didn't have to work anymore...buy him whatever car he wanted and get my mum a Vauxhall Tigra and get me a car and learn to drive it...go back to America again and again and again (This is something I think about a lot...not that I'm ever going to have a million pounds...lol)

5 places I would run away to...erm, in this order...home...Beccy's house...Lani's house...Sarah's house...but more likely to be Tim's office coz he talks sense.

5 things I would never wear...erm, shellsuits...one of those puffball skirts...over the knee boots...anything yellow or anything that clashed with something else I was wearing...

5 favourite TV shows...The West Wing, The West Wing and The West Wing. (I love it and am addicted. Seriously, listen to the theme tune if nothing else) Neighbours. Holby CIty (although it's never been the same since Art Malik left...aaah many a free period did me & Jane spend dreaming of Zubin...lol). Ooooh, Pingu (gotta love it) and CSI (all the variations, but NY is best - gratuitous shots of New York...but maybe Miami...Horatio is quite cute....) Ooooh, and House and Poirot and Without A Trace. Is that more than 5?? Ooops...naughty me!!

5 greatest joys...Seeing my friends, being with my friends, talking to my friends, actually just talking. No, seriously, music gets me everytime - so many memories in my head are attached to music...but being with my speical people can't be beaten by anything.

5 favourite toys...erm...Charlie, Dog-Ears (Its a dog with big floppy ears named by my dad), Elmo and more recently my new chocolate moose (his nose smells of chocolate...someone get one for Lani!!!) and my Johnny Bear.

A random number of people I shall be tagging...well everyone beat me to it, so I don't think there's anyone left....

Apologies (again)

No, its ok. I haven't died from MSN withdrawal...I've been spending quality time with my familials...lol.


First, I need to apologise to my surrogate big sister Jo B...I missed you off my big ol' "I Love Everyone" blog that I did the night before I left the Royal Land of Holloway (btw, was it Susie or Paula or Sarah N who started calling it that?? It's catchy), so sorry honey, I do indeed love you heaps...


And another apology to the wonderful Miss Sarah Leaford. I've neglected you horribly this holiday, I will make it up to you when we get back...


And to my Beccybex in Rusky...when we agreed to at least email every day...I failed you. But there we go. See you back in sleepy ol' Petersfield soon (before you jet away to New York...)


Anywho. Christmas. Well, as I said before, I haven't been doing much. Eating and sleeping. And watching lots of tv with my new set-top box that Santa brought me (Thanks Dad). And just generally doing lazy non-uni stuff.


Oooh, I've done lots of clothes shopping aswell...went to Soton with Menny - I navigated, she drove and we got to the West Quay Car Park in one piece *nods proudly* then yesterday we went to Guildford but she knew where she was going so I just played with the radio. I love my Menny-girl and can't believe I 'm not going to see you again until April!! How do I cope?? lol. I'm seeing James on Monday (more shopping at Gunwharf Quays) and then I'm working my backside off to try and get all my uni work done...NOT gonna happen!!!


So thats about it. Except I'm going to do another million posts today with all the random stuff I've been meaning to shove on here but haven't.


Laters y'all

xx

Erm...oops

Ok, when I said keep an eye on the blog...I meant to blog...but didn't get round to it. I was too busy eating and sleeping. Which is pretty much all I've done since I got home. And shopping obviously. And missing you all :(


Gotta keep it short & sweet to keep the parentals happy...


I'll do a better one soon!!

LOVE YOU ALL HEAPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And so it ends...

If I'm honest, I'm not actually sure where my first term has gone!!! Twelve weeks have just dissapeared... If someone had told me twleve weeks ago that I would be sitting here (avoiding) packing to leave for Christmas and getting really sad about how much I'm going to miss everyone, I wouldn't have believed them in any way!!

My 'Swood Cru...I love you guys, you are awesome. The way you all looked after me on the first night...Emma & Jo for looking after me on the first proper day of being away from home...T'KT & Emma for being the funnest next-door neighbours...Mary for always keeping us "entertained" when things get a bit quiet...Jojojo & Sarah for all those mass TV watching sessions, shopping sessions, random chatting sessions...My Name-Twin - I love you heaps, all those English lecs were just about bearable! My Scissor Sisters Mary & Laura - together we rock!! Rob - the first person to give me a hug on the first night - cheers mate! Skatho & Claire (honorary 'Swoodian) ahh...Critical Practice...gotta love it. My Uni Mum Becca who looked after me all week during Fresher's week (one day, I'll give you a Viola lesson my love) and my Johnny Boy...what can I say?? You know how much I'm going to miss you!!

My St Johns cru also rock and get a whole new paragraph to themselves...Lani first (better to keep her happy) - I really do love you heaps, you've been fantastic to me this term...couldn't have done it without you. Same goes for my lovely Sarah...always there with the hugs, even if its just for hugs sake (which is sometimes the best ones anyway!!). My Em, who technically is part of my 'Swood Cru but hey, you also rock...thanks for being there too! Chris, Ben & Tom P - one thing guys...HAMMERTIME! Thanks for making me laugh so much!! Can never be asd when you guys are around. Nao - one of the best friends a girl could have!! Cell rocks with us in it!! Chris & Johnny - Alpha was SO good...even if I didn't manage to say so at any point!! Mark & Nicki - Student Group was the way I met all these people, so thankyou for doing it every week!! Susie...what can I say?? you rock girl. Not enough time to mention everyone (I'm supposed to be packing...) but Aimee, Tom, Lucy, Sacha (still can't believe its really you!!), Katie, Hannah, Alice, Rhian, Helen, Sarah C, Paula...love you all heaps.

I guess the point of all this is to say the HUGEST thankyou to everyone who has been there for me at any point this term...you are all so special to me...

Have the most fantastic Christmas and New Year...let me know how yous all are doing!!

LOADS of love

Laura

xx

So Much To Say, So Little Time (Seems to be the story of my life)

Wow. OK, where to begin??? Last weekend was, once again, one of the best ones yet. Me, Jo, Ben and Chris were ushering at the College Carol Services, which was really fun...gave me an excuse to dress up a bit. It was so odd being at a Carol Service and not being in the choir. I was tlaking to my mum the other day, saying how I didn't feel Christmassy yet, because Christmas for me means Carol Concerts at St Peters, and more recently decorating Ramshill. I know now that there are going to be many new Christmas traditions, and that school is now firmly behind me, but the services made me strangely nostalgic for last year. I've also realised recently how much I miss music. When we were ushering for the Kings Chamber Orchestra concert back at the beginning of December, I realised how long it had been since I had been rehearsing for and playing in a concert, and just how much I missed it. Going from Wind Band, Orchestra, Jazz Group & Choir to nothing was quite a change, which I thought I'd welcome, but turns out I don't.

Anywho...I'm not in a deep'n'meaningful mood today (too tired (more to follow as to why) so moving swiftly on...Saturday evening was the Kingswood Christmas Formal which was SOOOO much fun

All the girls got ready up here, and it was so nice just to all chill out together and do hair and make up and just be really girly. They all looked beautiful, and it was just a top night. Particularly funny to see KT and Laura a little merry, because I hadn't seen that so far this term, so it made me laugh. Classic disco afterwards, doing the old Macarena and Saturday Night...love it.

Sunday was your usual chilled day...church then pub for lunch then back to 'Swood for a bit, then the Carol Service. All good fun. But fairly nondescript as far as Blogging it goes.

Monday night was the St John Student Group Christmas Party, complete with Secret Santa. SO good...was really nice just to chill out with everyone and eat someone else junk food for a change. The highlight of the evening was probably watching Chris and Ben trying to do the clapping rhymes that we did when we were about 8 in the playground...they were concentrating so hard!! Bless.

And so to Tuesday night. Well, what more can I say?? The CT Christmas Social...LEGENDARY!! I took soooooo many photos, and so did Lani and Aimee and everybody else...there's gonna be some Bebo nickage going on soon I think.

It was such a top night...everyone looked amazing, and it was so nice to spend time with the people I haven't seen for AAAAAAAGES...

And the disco...well...I don't think its describable really. Ben...Tom...Owen...you legends. All together now "Stop...HAMMERTIME"

I love all you guys heaps!!

Until we meet again...

xx

No money was exchanged...

I blame Ben. I really do. Although to be fair, it was Chris idea to play, it was Ben who brought out my competitive streak...lol. Once again, had the best weekend - went to Reading with Jane on Saturday and did lots of Christmas shopping :) then had a chilled evening watching TV and DVDs with my 'swood cru. I know I don't spend a lot of time with you guys, and it was really nice just to chill with you all (Can't wait until Saturday and the Christmas blow-out...you've gotta look after me tho...)

Sunday was hectic, but so much fun!! Church then Hungry Horse for lunch. Trust me, the "Light Bite" Fish & Chips...ain't nothing light about that!! :) I nicked a lot of Paul's onion rings aswell :) :) Maybe next week I'll order my own as a side... *ponders whilst dreaming of said onion rings* Anywho...went to Susie's for a meeting about Brazil, which does sound like a really good thing, but as usual, me being me is getting in the way of any kind of logical and reasoned decision. Get back to me on that one. (I'm sorry Suz, I just realised I'm talking about our mission in the same paragraph as onion rings...not trying to lessen the impact or seriousness of the mission...honest!!) (or the onion rings) (JOKE). Obviously Sunday wouldn't be Sunday without Frisbee, except this week it was dark. Still, nil desperandum (*proud nod* check me with the Latin-ness). It would have seemed wasteful not to make use of Chris's "Light Up FLying Disc" which is has red LED-thingies (sorry Dad, having an artisitic moment) and looks like a mini-flying saucer :) was SOOOOOOOO much fun. Then after a mad dash back to the 'swood to round up a select group for the carol service, it was the Regenerate Carol Service, which was fun too. Me and Jo got horrendous giggles again though. It must be something to do with me & her & christmas carols...

But to get to my point. Eventually. After said carol service, we were going to go to Crosslands...but it was closed. So we went back to Chris and Ben's (and Paula's) and ended up watching Top Gear :) and then playing Smackdown (a topic for another time, but it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun!!) and then we decided to play Poker. Now, you've got to understand, we do not condone gambling in any way. It was merely a game of cards where we exchanged chips with each other. No real money was involved (which, lets face it, is a REALLY good thing, otherwise I'd be a bit poor right now!!) It was just really funny watching me trying to learn (and understand) the rules. I'd just got the hang of it when 3 kings were down, and I was holding a pair of eights, and I kept raising Ben because I thought he was bluffing about having the other Kigng. But he wasn't. Ah well. I'll get him next time. One thing I do need to work on is my poker face. Rather than "ooh, check me" when I get dealt a half-decent hand...

Neighbours time. More of the same drivel later

Enjoy

xx