Friday, January 02, 2009

This year, to save me from tears...

New Years Resolutions. Quite the fashionable thing at the moment. And as far as I was concerned, totally overrated (particularly given the fact that I broke last years one so spectacularly) (and the year before that, come to think of it) but after a lot of thought, I've decided to make one for this year too.

If' I'm honest, in my weaker, more unhappy moments, I'm not very keen on myself. I judge myself incredibly harshly and can only see the bad, refusing to believe that there is any good for other people to see in me. When I'm sad, I get too angry and block people out. When I feel lonely, I flirt too much just to make myself feel better. If I look in the mirror and see spots or bad hair, I can't see past them & refuse to believe that other people can either.

So.

My resolution is this...to protect me from myself, to stop me hurting other people through my insecurities, to make me just that little bit happier and more secure...I resolve to find my identity in God. To let Him strengthen me and to find His power perfect in my weaknesses. I want to end 2009 happy with who I am and content with myself. I have no idea if it will work, but I want to try it.

Inspired by this beautiful lady, come join me. Make 2009 different for yourself, and be prepared to be surprised at how different that makes it for everyone around you.

Love, etc. And a very happy new year :)
xx

6 comments:

LeLe said...

What a great resolution! Sounds like what I need to do...

Anonymous said...

I have 10 resolutions!

Matt @ The Church of No People said...

Hey LuLu - thanks for commenting on my SCL post. God bless with your resolutions. I bet there's a lot of people like you with similar thoughts today.

laurwilk said...

That is a great resolution! One of the most interesting things about living in Cambodia was how free of insecurities I was. I suppose when you look completely different from everyone else every day, you begin to see yourself in a different light.

Good luck!

shaken AND stirred said...

I couldn't have said it better myself. In fact, I may just steal it..:-)

Heres to making that resolution come true!

Happy New Year!

Steph said...

Wow. I saw your comment over at SCL and had to jump over and see what you were about. I LOVED your post. Beautiful and honest and I am praying right now that you are successful in this resolution. We must remember that we should think of ourselves what GOD thinks of us. But we don't. So I am with you on this one too. Stop being so hard on myself! Blessings to you...

FAB WV: econic..e-conic: what we all think of Jon! He is e-conic! (from iconic, get it?)